January 2010
Right when I had hope
Right when I think that everything was getting Better something else happened. So I come downstairs to the news of my dog dying. That was my right hand man, smh I knew this day was coming eventually but I didn’t expect it at this time. I had this dog since I was three my first pet. I don’t even want to look at his body to say bye. =[ r.i.p Rocky ‘96-2010. So much for having a...
Today!
Today i had the best day and i can honestly say after this weekend im back on my shxt! Im pretty proud of myself but i couldnt do it on my own so i thank my support group lol. Thanks shantel for having me pretty disgusted rite now as i eat my chocolate covered pretzels. Tomorrow is a new and better day but for today im living in the moment and im enjoying it <3
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seriously… -_-
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The day I've been waiting for
Today’s Friday the [29] and Ive been waiting for this day #1 reason because my brother is coming today, and I’m overly excited because that’s my twin, my bestfriend, my right hand. I finally have company and not sit in this damn bed and think all day long. But also it’s the 29=\ doesn’t really matter too much anymore but I hope he definitely has a great day as always....
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Can't Drive with GPS, Blue Tooth Jupiter Jack???
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Woooooow I was just watching the News and they said that we can not drive with a Blue tooth head set because its a distraction and the same thing about a GPS system. Now how the hell would we know how to get somewhere without a GPS ( I know we can use Map Quest for the smart asses out there) But like seriously what the hell? And they also said if you get caught talking on you Blue...
Brighter day and a birthday
Now obviously I’ve been having a tough time, but today I received some encouragement and found some strong ground, that not only allowed me to change my mind set but gave me stronger faith and hope. Honestly Id really like to thank Amber for talking me through day in and day out I can’t fathom how much harder it wouldve been if you didn’t support me and struggle right a long with...
IPad!!!???? Da Hell??
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Ok right off the back The Ipad or whatever this thing is called is big as shit!!!!! But at the same time I think it’s pretty cool but I know one thing that isn’t going to be cool … . . And that’s the price lol. I’m not sure if its confirmed yet about the price but I feel that this thing is going to be most than the Apple Net books. This just looks like a older and more steroid...
Rough
Today was definitely a rough day, but it could always be worse -_- righ? Smh. Seriously need to get away. I need to go on a vacation. Not only that but I need to get it to flipping gether
A war
My mind and heart are in a battle and I’m waiting to see who’s going to win. My mind knows that I should turn my back and forget, but my heart is ready to start over as always. Hearts are stupid they never know when to give up only time they do is when they stop beating. How can you be torn up into pieces and want to start again smh dumbass. So whoever tells you to listen to your...
Mirror
I looked in the mirror and Its not the reflection I seen before. I keep praying for patience and the ability to see more than I allow myself to. I want to be more aware. I asked for a sign, and I got it, not the one that I wanted but so is life. You can’t always get what you ask for, but be grateful for what you already have or are about to receive. Let His will be done…
Titleless
“I miss you so much that it hurts” everytime I hear this I’m just reminded of what I couldn’t control. I was so set on a plan, a promise that was yet again broken. When was it enough? I guess I shouldve known better. I seen it coming why couldn’t I accept it? Well simple when youre in love you are blind you only want to see the good in people. You only want to believe...
just thoughts led me to this song
“Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today”
– James Dean
It's a habit now -_-
Great so I’ve been up since 6 again! This is getting ridiculous, I’m tired and frustrated. It’s looking like this semester coming up is going to be hell especially with what my schedule is looking like. I either want to get through this quickly or get things back to normal.. Getting things back to normal isn’t really seeming like an option anymore.
I definitely gotta go...
Intuition
Females always have a second sense about things why is that? Do males get this and if so are they that deep to actually look into what they are feeling or do they just brush it off? I’ve always tried to ignore my “intuition” cause I always thought I was just psyching myself out but after many times of being right I realize that maybe I should listen to it more often. Right now...
Self thought
Today has been full of surprises. I got soaked in the rain and I wasn’t upset, that is usually something I would complain about. I’m learning to control my emotions and thoughts. I feel like taking on a new hobby but I don’t think I’m ready yet because I have a feeling that I’m going to quit, and I don’t want to do that anymore. I’m in between myself with...
Eye opener
This morning I was out of my element. There’s no way I can escape this feeling. Last night I tried to study for my English midterm and every page I turned in my notebook had some quote or sign that made me break down to my knees. This weekend was full of nightmares I was hoping staying awake would make a difference, but it hasn’t I’m just walking into my nightmares with my eyes opened.
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Weekend
This weekend isn’t the best weekend for me hopefully it’s better for other people. I realized recently that when I was younger everybody always seemed to believe in God. Now as I’m older I realized that a lot of people doubt him, I’m not one of them. I have a strong belief in God because everytime I needed Him, He’s always turned things in my favor. I feel that if you...
“Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it’s what you...”
– Anonymous
Let them fly
Sometimes when you love something so much, you have to be selfless even if they are selfish. I had to learn that the hard way. If someone that you care for more than life itself wants to be freed then you must let them go in order for you and them to heal. Some people have to be selfish to get what they want in life and if that means giving up the only thing you cared for then you must take that...
I definitely cannot stop singing this song since i...
“Losing an illusion makes you wiser than finding a truth”
– Karl Ludwig Borne
time heals all?
Everybody is looking for some kind of healing.. there is no set guarantee that it will come. They say time heals all but what if your impatient, what quicker steps can you take so that you heal faster. Cuts have neosporin what do we have?